urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil doognevil doognevil 2006-04-28T19:47:40Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:9760 2006-04-28T19:47:40Z 2006-04-28T19:47:40Z "Crazy" by Gnarles Barkley Well...first of all, it's just been way too long. Ok so, there's has just been WAY too many things going on since the last time. Jesse and I broke up after we had moved in together and had been together for 7 months. Yeah, don't worry about feeling sorry, I'm WAY over it. Plus, it made me realize that he's an asshole and he's stupid. When I got back on my livejournal, I just started reading all my old entries...and I read ALL of them. And I realized how stupid I was...so yeah, sorry for that everyone! Also...I kinda recently got laid off from Westminster. Yeah, it sucks, but I'm glad it happened. So then...I was single for about 6 months, but then I found this new guy. :-D He's great, but I don't want to bore everyone by talking about him. Anyway, I need to go do laundry. PEACE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:9716 2005-07-12T03:29:36Z 2005-07-12T03:30:26Z Coldplay Well, life does have it's ups and downs. Sometimes stronger than others. But in the end you just ask yourself, "Why me?". Some things you'll never understand or never be able to answer. Until then, you just think.Think about all that's good, somtimes what's bad, but bad things never make you happy. And where would you be if you weren't happy? Wow, I'm doing some pretty bad rambling, but that's what I do when I sit here and pour out my feelings. So, sorry if it sounds weird when you read it. Yes, I had a bad day. Yes, I'm thinking about it. But why? Why sit here and hurt myself instead of brushing it off and saying, "Oh well, just a bad day."? Because we all know...you're just making a big deal out of nothing. Which I am. But maybe in some way, this day effected me. Or maybe I'm really stupid and I like the drama too. Whatever it may be, I just need to get over it. Ever notice that people tend to over react on the bad days anyway? Emotionally that is. It's as if this one bad thing in their life just ruins what they think is their perfect life. Why sit there and make a big deal out of the bad days, and not the good ones? Sounds kinda stupid. So, go out there and celebrate a good day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:9360 2005-07-03T19:34:48Z 2005-07-03T19:34:48Z Okay...way too long for me to not be writing in this thing. I went to Cancun and it was awesome, but really humid and gross. The beach was to die for and hotel was nice except for the little mix up with the reservations. Everyone pretty much knows about that. Anywho...I got a full time job at Westminster Financial. It deals with realty stuff. Kind of lame, but it pays 8 bucks an hour so I'm not complaining. Jesse and I have been really good. We just recently had our 3 month anniversary. We went to the fair yesterday and had an awesome time. It was really packed there though. Ah well. So, things have been good. Let's see what this month has for me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:8993 2005-06-11T05:21:06Z 2005-06-11T05:21:06Z Yay...finally, but it still doesn't seem real. I just feel like I'm going back to school and this is just a weekend. Shit is going to suck when this sinks in. I know like no one reads these live journals except for friends, but I just like to write and get my feelings out. The worst part is that I never TELL people my feelings, I just write them. Oh well, it all works out. Jacque, Wes, Jesselyn, and I are going to Cancun this up coming week. We leave sunday. It kind of sucks to leave so early because we just got out for the summer and basically I have to wait to see Jesse. Then I have this 30 day deadline thing, which a certain few know what that is. But, it just sucks. I don't want to leave Jesse and I don't want to leave him worrying about me. I love him so much and I just don't want to leave him like this. I feel he's become distant and I hate it. Things will be okay when I get back. I just know it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:8810 2005-05-21T21:58:10Z 2005-05-21T21:59:54Z Ok well...can anyone else say that last night rocked? Probably Jesselyn, but otherwise...for me, last night was awesome. First I hung out with Jesselyn like all day yesterday. I picked her up from school and we went to get our paychecks, put the in the bank, and eat. Stuff like that. Jesse met up with us at Grossmont and that was cool because I got to see him and see how his interview went. Then Jesselyn and I got ready and I picked her up so we could go to the play. Holy crap that place was busy last night! Oh well...the play is still awesome. So then Jesselyn and I got food and Jesse and Eric followed because we all went to a friend's house to spend the night. The beginning of the night was a little rocky, but it got a lot better. So Jesse and I slept in one bed and Jesselyn and Eric slept in another. Hehehe...I slept with Jesse! (Literally, not the other way...you perverts) It was so awesome to wake up next to him. Even though we didn't do much of sleeping, but when I did, it was nice to open my eyes and see him there. Anywho...so yeah. Awesome night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:8690 2005-05-15T05:57:50Z 2005-05-15T05:57:50Z Ok well today I was out with Jesse like all day. I left at like 10 o'clock this morning and got back at 10 o'clock at night. 12 hours!! It was good though...hehehe. First we went to his Uncle Jack's house. Listened to some awesome music there. Then went to see Kerry King (the guitar player for the band Slayer). That was pretty awesome for a person not much into hard core rock like that. lol...all for Jesse. So we went back to his house. By the way did anyone else think is was hotter than fucking shit today!?!? God damn! Anywho...so we sat there going, "What you wanna do?" "I dunno, what do you wanna do?" That sort of thing. So we watched a movie in the garage. Then we had dinner and I sawe him play his guitar in our school play. w00t w00t! They rock! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:8286 2005-05-08T21:16:08Z 2005-05-08T21:16:08Z The Doors "Light My Fire" Yes well I must say Happy Mother's Day to all my friend's mothers and what not. Now that that is done. Things have been going good for me lately. I had an awesome time with Jesse last night. We went up by this place where you can see like all of El Cajon and stuff. It was awesome. We sat on a rock just talkin' and drinkin apple cider. Awesomeness. We also did other stuff, but I'll leave that between him and me. After I hung out with Jesse, I went to get something to eat so I just went to McDonald's. Of course...who do I see there? My ex-boyfriend, Tony. Ah...Tony. Yes well that was nice. Not really, but ya know. Anywho...so nothing is all that new. I had quite a boring day really. I went to the store. Got some stuff. But yeah...HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE! WOOT! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:8049 2005-05-06T05:22:10Z 2005-05-06T05:25:15Z Jet "Look What You've Done" Well things have been....weird lately. Like not to mention I'm the biggest fucking idiot on the face of the earth. Sometimes you'd rather kill yourself over the stupidity, but then that would be even more stupid so basically you're just fucked. ANYWHO! So yeah. What would make me so stupid you ask? Well...it all goes back to last night. Last night was my last day working at McDonald's FOREVER! WOOT! And so there's this guy that comes in a lot and he's cool and all, plus he has the car I basically want to like marry. But yeah...I don't even like this guy (plus he has this weird mood problem) but yeah I gave him my number. Of course like all you know I have a boyfriend that I love very much. Anywho...basically I fucked up. I REALLY REALLY fucked up. I'M A ONE MAN WOMAN DAMMIT! WHY AM I SOOO DUMB?!?! Life's really important questions. Ah well...it's over. I don't talk to that guy anyway. Plus he's 29. What the fuck? Honestly. *stabs self* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:7909 2005-05-03T04:31:48Z 2005-05-03T04:56:45Z Aqualung "Brighter Than Sunshine" Just one month closer to the end of school. Boo yeah bitches! lol...Hmm...what to say? I could say many things, but then it probably wouldn't make much sense. Not like it does anyway. Things have been much better since the last time I wrote in here. Which is good. Anywho! I'm having like writer's block here. SOMEONE HELP! Oh well I could talk about my day today. Well of course I went to school. Then got something to eat. Then met Jesselyn and Jeremy at Baskin Robbins. Yum. Then Jeremy had to go so Jesselyn and I met Carrie and Eric. We walked around different stores and what not. Then we got pictures done in the little photo thing in the mall. Then hung out at Eric's. Then got food at In and Out. YUM (Again). Then I came home and talked to Jesse. Like always...hmm. I can't get enough of that guy. I love him so much! I should put that picture of us on here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:7515 2005-04-30T18:30:58Z 2005-04-30T18:34:44Z Ya know when you make the greatest plans and everything that could possibly go wrong actually does go wrong? Well that happened to me, but like everything was a fucking train wreck. I don't want to make this a long story (because almost everyone knew my plans) but I had plans to have Jesse spend the night. And after a long arguement of misunderstandings and noncompromising, basically long story short, Jesse "slept" in his car last night in a parking lot. Now I put slept in quotes because it wasn't so much of sleeping as it was sitting in his car waiting for the hours to pass. So pretty much I felt like an ass. No, ass is an understatement so you think of word you'd like to call me. I know it's my fault and it is my fault. I was really hurt last night and I'm still hurt now. Hurt as in crying profusely. It's just that Jesse doesn't deserve that at all and I wish it didn't have to go where it did. But it did and I will forever feel bad about it. I think the reason I feel so badly is I have this fear in my head I'd rather not believe. Which I shouldn't anyway. I love you Jesse. I'm sorry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:7375 2005-04-27T04:05:41Z 2005-04-27T04:05:41Z Well I'm glad that Jesse and I have successfully made it one month without killing each other. lol...j/k. It's been so awesome. I wouldn't change it for anything. It almost feels unreal because I sometimes feel I don't deserve such a great guy and I'm just...lucky I guess. I love that guy so much. I just like how even if we're not doing anything at all, we're still having fun just being with each other. It's great. Anywho...hmm...do I think about him a little too much or what? Hahaha...oh well I don't care. Oh, the prison was fun yesterday. I've never been so scared in my life. Being surrounded by convicted murderers and all. It went well though. They we're cool and actually nice. HAPPY 1 MONTH JESSE!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:7133 2005-04-21T02:29:51Z 2005-04-21T02:29:51Z Rolling Stones Ok way too long. There's been a lot going on like my birthday and all. My birthday party was awesome with the limo and what not. I don't exactly know what to talk about anymore even though it's been like forever and I could talk about so much, but I think it's because I'm distracted by um...Jesse right over there. Loser...STAR testing is going on this week so no school for seniors for three days! w00t w00t! Anywho...shout out to all my homies out there! You know who you are. Late. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:6825 2005-04-14T03:42:48Z 2005-04-14T03:42:48Z Well I couldn't be any more happy that tomorrow is my birthday and I get to see Jesse atfer three days at Catalina. But Catalina was fucking awesome. Besides the fact that all the nature crap was awesome, I was hangin out with the 3 coolest girls there...HELL YEAH! BOOBS, BOOBS AND MORE FUCKING BOOBS!! LOL...but yeah we started a crew...VP CREW 4 LIFE BEEZNEECHES!! I am the O.G. a.k.a. Cracker. Amber is Gangster/Taco (cuz shes Mexican). Sharon is Noodle/Ninja (cuz shes Asian). And Kiri is Potato/Teary (cuz she's irish and kicks ass). But anywho enough of my crap, I should go call the guy I've missed so much for so long. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:6653 2005-04-09T05:31:16Z 2005-04-09T05:31:16Z Ah yes...totally tired. But anywho...on to the good stuff! Jesselyn and I got our paychecks and what not, then went to go get naked...weeeeeeeeeeee! Good stuff. Anywho. Then I saw JD (EEEEEEEEEEEE) because he was going to the Slipknot concert and all that crap. Ah well. But yeah Jesselyn and I got a whole bunch of "Go To Sex" stuff...hahahaha she knows what I'm talking about. And it's all fucking hot! Can't wait to show Jesse! lol...so all awesomeness! 6 DAYS! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:6340 2005-04-07T20:51:58Z 2005-04-07T20:51:58Z Yes, 1 week. I couldn't be anymore excited until my actually birthday. Catalina is creeping closer too. I leave on monday!! AHHH!! Crazyness. Well I don't know why but I'm going to reply to JD's sorta recent entry. Well hon, I'm sorry your dad gives you so much shit, but all I can say is that I'll be here for you forever and always. So if you ever need me, you know how to get a hold of me. Plus I always make you feel better. Like last night! I don't know why I didn't just say this to you last night on the phone, but I guess it's because I just thought of it now. lol...anywho. I went out to lunch today at Poultry Palace. Really good stuff actually. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:6051 2005-04-07T01:04:11Z 2005-04-07T01:04:11Z For some odd reason I have a horrible headache. Yes it's random but oh well. Today was long and lame. But thank GOD I don't have to go to work today, tomorrow, or friday! Tomorrow is a minimum day too. I get a to sleep in a little. MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 8 DAYS!! WAHOO! Okay...now that I have that off my chest. Today I went to the Academic League match today. It was my school against El Cap. I went just to see Wes because he's on the El Cap team. But yeah my school one by like 10 points. Ah well...I'm going to Catalina next week. I'm gunna miss JD! How ever will I make it?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:5833 2005-04-06T04:08:39Z 2005-04-06T04:08:39Z <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/truly-dippy/1061574058_pcocktail2.jpg" border="0" alt="Cocktail"><br>Cocktail<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/truly-dippy/quizzes/%3F%3F%20Which%20Alcoholic%20Drink%20Are%20You%20%3F%3F/"> <font size="-1">?? 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Ha...ha...Anywho. 1 day closer to my birthday every day! WAHOO! One thing that freaked me out was this guy that called my cell phone when I was on the phone with JD. I didn't even know this guy and he was talking to me like he knew me. I certainly didn't recognize his voice. So basically for the longest time I was freaking out that I had a stalker and he was going to kill me. Shit...I'm such a drama queen. I'm not going to get anywhere in life if I keep spending it in fear of the stupidest shit. Why am I so lame?!!?!? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:4940 2005-04-04T05:01:05Z 2005-04-04T05:01:05Z I don't know what the hell to write exactly. I could go on with my always boring day or talk about the one guy who is so freakin awesome. In case you didn't know...Jesse is basically the best thing thats happened to me. I like never want to leave him when I'm out with him and I could talk to him forever. Am I sounding obsessive? Ah well, it's true...he's awesome. I also need to stop having a perverted mind. lol...it is true though. School resumes tomorrow. Why the fuck did I uses the word "resume"? I dunno...I'm lame. So yeah. 11 DAYS TIL MY BIRTHDAY!! Watch out now. I'm finally going to be 18. Boo yeah bitches. I'm having this awesome limo party. And only my cool friends are invited...lol. w00t w00t! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:4669 2005-03-30T08:46:46Z 2005-03-30T08:46:46Z I need to get back on it and write in this mother fucker. Things have been going great so far. Jesse and I are offically boyfriend and girlfriend and currently I'm tired as fuck and I can't really think of anything to write. So yeah...goodnight! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:4381 2005-03-21T07:25:36Z 2005-03-21T07:25:36Z Shaggy "Angel" I'm like so happy! Today was fun. I went to Ikea with my mom and we got a new bed frame for me and a freakin $1000 matress. CRAZY COMFORTABLE! Then I got a new comforter set. Then Jesse came over for dinner tonight and finally met my parents. My parents freakin loved him and I can tell. And plus my mom gave me a thumbs up as I was leaving to take him and Jesselyn home. It was fun. Jesse played the guitar and kicked ass. Good night...yes. I don't know what else I was going to say. So whateva... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:4209 2005-03-18T06:26:54Z 2005-03-18T06:26:54Z Wahoo...28 days and counting until my birthday, which will be incredibly awesome. Boo yeah bioatches. I also had an awesome day with Jesselyn and I finally met her boyfriend...lol. But yeah...not much to talk about, just in some pain but I can't explain why. Sorry, but to those who know which is basically just Jesselyn. But yeah...it's late. I need to get off the internet. GOODNIGHT! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:3862 2005-03-14T05:19:38Z 2005-03-14T05:19:38Z Ok...it's been a while. Too long in fact. I went with my friend Kimbra to Six Flags and Disneyland. It was freakin awesome...I embarrassed the shit out of her. It was great. But anywho! About recent shit...I finally went on my little date with Jesse tonight. BOO YEAH! Hit that shit! But yeah...I felt really bad because this guy that my friend wanted to meet (Paul) well I finally met him and he's freakin awesome. And I started liking him and I went on this date with him last night so I felt like a player. :-( I don't like that feeling, but after tonight I definately know now that I like Jesse better. Hehehehe we kissed and it was great even though I'm a freakin idiot and I was nervous...and had to pee like a mother fucker, but yeah. Gotta give Jesse the cred on the kissing. Not me because I'm fucking stupid. Ah well...it'll only get better from here... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:doognevil:3704 2005-03-02T03:46:38Z 2005-03-02T03:49:04Z March 1st. 1 MONTH AND 14 FREAKIN DAYS BITCHES! 'Til my birthday that is. I'm soo excited! It's going to be bitchen. Hmm...what has happened recently. Oh I somewhat apologize for the entry before this one because it was a little harsh, but I just needed to vent really badly. Of course I have no idea what I was mad about. LOL...leave it up to me to do that. In my english class today...we just finished reading Frankenstein and now we're doing a mock trial on it. Today we picked the parts of who's going to be who and I went up to my teacher before class explaining I won't be at school monday, tuesday, or wednesday of next week so she told me I shouldn't be an attorney. I said I didn't really want to be anyway. So yeah my class is dumb because all of them are lame and didn't want to volunteer to be Victor or Frankenstein. We had to get those people before we could move on so like we were sitting there for like 5 or 10 minutes and no one was volunteering and so I was thinking I shouldn't be a really big part so I don't have to worry about being gone and missing like tons of stuff, but I just wanted this thing to continue so I volunteered and at first my teacher was skeptical on me being the part, but she said I could probably make it work. So now I'm the creature! w00t w00t!